I had a dream last night. I should have got up and went into the other room and dictated it into my phone recorder so it was fresh, but I still remember much of it. It was short. There were a couple more short dreams that followed, but I cannot remember them at all right now.
In the dream, I’m watching some people beside me that are looking for the moon. It is pitch black and we start to see a bright but blurry object shining through what might be clouds. It gets bright and moves around a bit – and then it’s very bright and round shaped and staying in one place. They are oohing and ahhing. I look at them and I realize, they are shining a very bright flashlight to look for the moon.
They found what they thought was the moon, but it was created by the beam of the bright flashlight they were using, showing up on the clouds.
In my dream, I realized the meaning of what was going on… and I slowly came to realize that it was a dream.
The moon represents the unknown. It’s largely unexplored. We’ve landed there only once. A few people have gone up and been close to it – but there was only one landing.
This parallels the mystery surrounding Buddha and enlightenment. It is a mystery that many in the world would like to reach – to find, to experience. It’s as hard as getting to the moon apparently. It isn’t even seen clearly, because most people are using mechanical means, traditional 1 + 1 = 2 type approaches to reaching nirvana. It’s like using a flashlight to find the moon – it doesn’t make sense, and it won’t lead us to the true result. It is taught that way, and people try to follow it that way.
Problem is – it cannot be found like that – you will get nowhere.
It’s extremely hard (it is impossible) to talk about something as nebulous as nirvana – in terms we’re accustomed to hearing – and teach people to ‘get there’ by doing this, this, this then that.
Also, this dream relates to the abhinnas. I created abhinna.org a short while ago to start to talk about the very strange, multi-dimensional experiences (for lack of a better phrase) that can be had after someone begins getting into jhana realms. I know nobody else talking about these phenomena, but they clearly (to me) exist, and deserve a lot more exploration if we’re to find out much more about them.
In a way, the moon also was a metaphor for abhinna. People were using traditional methods for years to assess, to test, to experiment with extra sensory perception, seeing the future, hearing sounds very distant, and other “supernatural” occurences. That isn’t the way to approach the topic – the dream was telling me.
The way to approach it is through jhana 4… The dream was saying that the way to blowing the entire thing open – was through meditation… like I’ve done in the past.
So, this dream didn’t come out of nowhere. I have been thinking for years about continuing the journey that meditation started in my mind… and the idea that so few people have ever reached nirvana or even jhana or abhinna – has been on my mind quite a bit. I want to ignore the topic – and I do my best to do so, but it is always there in the back of my mind. It reminds me constantly that I experienced jhana and abhinna, and it won’t go away for good.
I know that it isn’t going away. It’s been 13 years since I started getting into jhana… about 12 since I had abhinna – divine eye and knowing others minds. The memory of the experience, the profundity of it all, is not likely going away in the next 12-13 years either. Probably it is never going away. It feels like I am being gently urged to continue the whole process. To what end – is anyone’s guess. I try hard to involve myself in many other things. I try hard to be the old Vern that I was before I started seeing jhana levels. I try so hard to forget it all and yet, it’s right there all the time.
Sometimes I wish it would just disappear and leave me alone.
Other times I wish I had the motivation to go forward with it and see what happens.
I just don’t have it…
I wrote about, and did videos about, some of my experiences with Abhinna. I even started Abhinna.org because I couldn’t believe that so few people were talking about it. I have a couple guesses as to why that might be, which I’ll touch on shortly in this article.
I was searching Google again today, hoping to find other people with experinces of divine eye, divine ear, or the other abhinnas. I have yet to find anyone else’s personal account of the experiences they had with it. That’s a wee bit bothering to me. It reminds me of the time I searched for years to find someone that could tell me what the experiences I had during meditation were… turns out that some were Jhana – written about in the Buddhist scriptures hundreds of years ago. Many people knew about jhana. Few wrote anything about having directly experiencing them.
I’ve still yet to meet anyone that has had even 1st jhana… Of course there have been many people that have – I just have yet to meet them, so, that’s not on my mind much.
However, when searching the internet, where Google has billions upon billions of pages indexed – and not being able to find something there about someone’s personal abhinna experience – it’s quite odd. I’ll try other keywords later today, and see if that helps. I think that might be part of the problem. Still, there should be something in English… there should be English speaking people that put something up online about it somewhere – right? Seems so. I searched Youtube too – nothing there.
Perhaps people are talking about it in different terms. I saw a few videos on the 3rd Eye Chakra that might be similar. I don’t know much about those beliefs though. I will have a look later. Seems like Buddhism has enough followers and the texts are known well enough for someone to realize abhinna when they have it – and be able to write about it or shoot a quick video about the experience.
So part of it might be that I’m just searching in a way that won’t show me people that have had abhinna. That would be a positive answer to the question.
The answer I fear is that, people are not having abhinna and are not writing or talking about their experiences because there just aren’t any of these experiences happening for them. That’s scary. It’s scary because, the experiences I had that seem to fit abhinna – and that I detailed in the videos at Abhinna.org, would make me unique… or nearly unique. I don’t have any desire to BE that unique. I don’t want to know that I’m the only, or one of only very few people in the world that is having these experiences.
You know what they did to witches in Salem in the USA?
Not that someone will burn me at the stake, but still – there aren’t going to be masses of people that understand. Not at all. Maybe very few at all that would understand.
How’s that for a life experience… something you had occur has happened for nobody else, or only a handful of people… and they’re all dead hundreds of years ago? That’s plain scary. Sounds like a strange movie… or the beginning of a cult.
Worry not, family and friends, I have no intention of starting a cult, religion, or group. I tend toward the other side – introversion, and though I’d like to share my experiences so maybe I can connect with others of the same sort.
So it’s scary, or weird, or odd. Not that I sit here scared… but I sit here… uncomfortable. I guess that’s the best word. I sit here knowing that these experiences that appear to be outside a dimension that is usually known by humans – are absolutely real. They are attainable. At least they come… I’m not saying that one can go get them. One can make the mind prepared for them to come if they’re going to – I guess it is better to say.
I don’t worry about why they came to me… the why, I’m sure is inconsequential. It’s basically because I sat and meditated in a way that calmed the mind and stopped it for long periods of time. It’s basically because I did a simple exercise, that opened up this new channel of experience – encompassing jhana, abinna, and other strange things not normally experienced. I don’t have any doubt that millions of people can do the same thing. I do know that millions are not… and that’s a bit disturbing.
It’s disturbing because here is this amazing experience that so few are experiencing. I wonder what the world would be like if there were millions of people… a billion… experiencing abhinna. What would the world look like?
I have been watching this ultra-runner’s videos at youtube quite a bit lately… his name is Michael Arnstein. He talks about ultra-running as a religious experience. He talks about it as his religion. He talks about things the mind goes through during a long 50, 100 mile race that are ultra-fulfilling. He talks about long runs as the ultimate experience he has ever known on earth.
The difference between his experience and mine is that mine is infinitely more easily attainable. So I think. So I have no reason not to think. How many people are going to run 50+ miles in their lifetimes? Nobody I know. Nobody I’ll ever know maybe.
How many have the ability, the patience, the drive, to sit down and watch the breath for 20 minutes per day for a few months, years, or decades? A whole lot more.
So, while sitting in meditation and focusing on the breath is a bit like ultra-running because it requires discipline and drive, and probably consistency… it is within most people’s or many people’s grasp. It is not a superhuman feat. It is not a feat that requires extreme intelligence or extreme anything. It just takes a willingness to play the game of meditation – and win. You win when the mind slows down and then stops. This is when the experiences of jhana – and other experiences, begin to happen.
Anyway… just wanted to write something about abhinna and that I am looking for others that have experienced any of the abhinnas. If you want to see my videos about the subject, go to Abinna.org and have a look.
Please write if you have any reason to do so…